Thursday, March 26, 2009

ug!

im never eating spaghetti again
IM SO BLOATED
im going to explode

tooth decay? no way!

hello hello hello!

its really, REALLY windy today. and rainy. i'm not sure where my aunt has gone, maybe she is in her roooom.

u know what i love? how some people LOOOOVEEE to complain how they are soooo large, but they never even make an effort to shrink themselves.

today ive haaadddddd some cereal (102 cals) some soup (300 cals) and a wee bit o chocolate. not sure what i'll have for supper.

i went to the dentist today, for a checkup, i have to go and get 2 of my molars sealed, cuz apparently... they need sealing haha, also apparently the wisdom teeth on the right side of my heeeead are.... stuck hahaha. wedged at a jaunty angle. supposedly they might move and carry on their merry way. but they may also not. i bet they are FINE! the bottom one on the left is totally out and the top one on the left is almost fully out. so all gravy. the right side is just taking its time. there is no way im having them pulled out. NOWAY. so the dentist appointment and the sealing next week cost me 188 quid, ouch ouch ouch! the dude also said i need a night thing to stop me grinding my teeth, but its 95 quid so NOTHANKS. i dont even think i grind my teeth in me sleep, i think its from when i was younger.i did grate my teeth for a while back then, bleh, remember the sound grating teeth make, makes me feel queasy.

so my aunt and i went out to dinner last night with her friend stuart, to some pubby restaurant called the royal oak. It was nice, i haaadd scrambled duck egg with smokes salmon to start, and then had a lemon sole, with chips, but i didnt eat all of the chips hahaha, the fish was really nice. then we shared a crem brulee and a rhubarb trifle, then we had coffeeee, and i had a cappuccino, and then a macciato. i also had like half a glass of wine but i was driving so i didnt even drink it all.

i drove stuarts car back to the house and flippen heck, when you drive a car that you arent accustomed to driving its a little bit scary. all the pedals n my car are really responsive and on stuarts, you practically had to slam no the breaks for them to work. it was an older golf (like, older than mine, the old style) but it was quite nice honestly. i'd drive one (as long as it didnt have dodgy breaks)

saw slumdog millionaire night before last, it was really good, not at all what i expected. i didnt really want to see it because everyone said it was so good, but i actually ejoyed it, the little kid actors were really good too. aww. nice film (well kinda nice kinda depressing and morbid).

i was ment to go to a comic thing with my friend jake on saturday but I can't now cuz my aunt is going to brighton for the weekend and my cousin ben is having some friends over, and we cnt have them home alone, wrecking the place haha. sorry jakey cakes, next one!

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

tulips and daffodills

I don't know why I let food control my life.
I find it easiest if i just don't start eating.
Once I start, I just can't stop.
Literally, the food takes a hold of me and I have no control of it.
None.
At all.
I can't just have "a piece of cheese" or "a slice of toast"
it always turns into more.
I can't just have one
I cant leave things
I cant even just eat half
I want to be hypnotized haha

Friday, March 20, 2009

goodmorning!

i'm just full o love today!
the sun is shining, the spring flowers are out
i might go on a walk laterrr with the dogs, get some fresh air
i need a shower
there is a gremlin lurking on my neck
i tried to squeeze it but i dont think its ready
hey ho!
I GOT A NEW CAMERAAHHHH!
cost me like 200 quid
but i lovvveee it
my old one was lame
LAME
this one is awesome
i would buy a DSLR if i had the cash
but their so expensive and then you need to buy lenses aswell
which are SO expensive
one day :)
i wanted to work at thorpe park for the summer
cuz ur basically outside all the time runing about making sure people are strapped in the rides
but they only had vacancies for food and beverage :(
DEFINALELY don't want to do that
maybe i'll keep checking back and see if there is anything!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

100 thingies

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?.
theres a nice scar on my left elbow from when i was really little, i was in bed and i felt a scrape, so i went downstairs and told my parents there was a piece of plastic in my bed and i couldnt find it. they told me to go back to bed, so i did and it sliced my elbow open. nice. haha

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
in my room in barbados there was lots and lots of crap, but my room in england is fairly plain

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3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
uumm no not really, i think i may have talked in my sleep before but its not a regular thing

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
a little bit of everything! every genre has its good and bad songs

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
not a freekin clue, sometime in the evening i think, my dad was at the pub all drunk then cycled to this hospital and tried to get in the hospital bed with my mum LOL

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
uummmm... probably.... erh..... actually nothing to be honest

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my family, how things were when it was me and mum and dad and andrew and it was just us, then andrew left, hasnt really been the same since, but hey, im happy not to be in barbados anymore

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
maybe my locket

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
5 foot 7. i was ment to be 5 foot 11 but i ingerited my dads short legs

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
nope but i am afraid of the dark, petrified inface

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
LOL yes. very. only if im alone though

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
i dont think people ever make me cry, its always to do with myself haha

13. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR?
being poor (sounds horrible but its true)

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
blueeee eyes, any kind of hair lol

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
like, over dinner witht he ring hidden in the chocolate pudding or somehting then i accidentally swallow it, then after a romantic trip to the hospital where i get my stomach pumped or something theres nothing more to say really LOL

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
both, i drink alot of coffee but redbull is deliciously tangy

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
i say i dont like pizza, its all a lie. mmmm probably goats cheese and lots of caramelised onions, yummyy!

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
i have a tummy ache no im so not hungry, chewing some gum. although there is an easter egg infront of me and its calling my name.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
pink! or lime green, but probably pink

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
hahahhaha not that i know of

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU’VE EVER RECEIVED?
mmmmm.... my parents were always pretty good at giving meaningful presents, but then again so are janine and kira, so im not sure.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
not really

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
only kinda in my wrist a little, i wish i was though, it would be awesome to do the splits lol

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
uummm american eagle, roxy, hollister (although i cant fit into half of the things they make)

25. WHO IS THE HOTTEST FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
female? i dont know honestly, their all really pretty, gwen steffani is petty hot. jake ghyllenhaal is hottest male for sure. donny darko = very yes

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
not right now :(

27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
malibu <3
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28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
I dont think you can really stop yourself falling in love, but i would hope that wouldnt happen

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
18

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
either! i've always wanted to go blonde for a bit maybe, but i love dark hair, its shinier

32. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS
the church of noise

33. HOW DO YOU SEE YOURSELF DYING?
probably after being diagnosed with cancer or something horrible, maybe a terrible bone rotting disease in my face

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE UK?
yep, first time was when i was 6 months old or something. I grew up in the caribbean and ive beeen tooo :
Barbados, Italy (x2), Spain, France, Teneriffe, Margarita, Puerto Rico (x4), Florida (x2), Seattle, New York, Rhode Island, St. Vincent, Bequia, Antigua, Pensylvania, i'm sure im forgetting places

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
chocolate, gossip

36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
uummm Cilla Black? hahaha

37. FIRST JOB?
doing some officy things for my mum but my first ever proper job was working in a coffee shop in Barbados

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
of corse, what child hasnt

39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE?
maybe not, im not sure about this whole soulmate business

40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
browsing facebook, before that we took the range rover to the garage for servicing

41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
nopeee! but ive been in hospital overnight before, when i was like 4 i woke up with a dead leg. not like gangreen, i just couldnt move it at all

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
my eyes, my white teeth thanks to crest white strips, and that i smell nice. also on my freckles for some reason, and my hair being freaskishly thick

43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
i did, for about 10 months. I had a headgear and all, sexyyy! I needed them though, years of thumb sucking gave me an overbite

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
i wanted to see my family and kira and janine but i dont think thats going to happen.

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
between 2 and 5

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
nope! my parents just liked the name

47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
body odor.

48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU MISS ABOUT SCHOOL?
seeing my friends every day

49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
right now im using herbal essences but i bought some timotei stuff for when it runs out because im skint and it was cheap and smells really nice

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
i do, its nice and bubbly. i write best with a cheap biro. i LOVE free pens.

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
i'm a vegetarian lol

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
talking too much, probbly about things i shouldnt be talking about anyway, obsessive skin picking, not being tidy enough

53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
nope, im afraid not

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
no i cant stand people who talk alot

55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
sure why not, but then i dont like it when those friends have benefits with other people. so more like friends with benefits who cant fool around with other people.

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
yes but not as much as personality

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
i have a mental breakdown a couple of times a year, but i dont tend to get angry

59. WHAT’S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
money money money money

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
wuggie, who was a bit of sheep's skin from my push chair when i was a baby and i kept onto a bit of it, not really a toy i know but it was my version of a teddy or a blankie, untill my mum threw wuggie away

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR MOBILE?
i wouldnt count it but i honestly cant find my mobile right now, its probably under my bed

62. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
no i hated that shit. anything educational i was so not interested in.

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
a little, i dont go overboard with it, i dont like mean sarcasm

64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
either please hahaha perhaps both. maybe mac and cheese. depends what you are having it with to be honest

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
mmmm... i dont really look for things, i just enjoy what i find (or sometimes i dont enjoy what i find haha)

67. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
holl, holls, when i was younger my dad called me hollsy bear and tiger nose because i had a cute little one, now its massive so that name kinda went out the window

68. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
greys anatomy, skins and eastenders! and the jeremy kyle show haha

69.WHAT’S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
ignore them completely

70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
cookie dough or that amazing ben and jerries brownie one (behemian raspberry or half baked)

71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
thankfully hahaha

72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
yeah its andrews english one, its alow as crap and drives me beserk so i dont use it

73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
nothing thus far, i went a bit overboard with the booze the night before last so im trying to recover still hahaha

74. WHAT’S THE FASTEST YOU’VE EVER GONE IN A CAR?
way too fast to be honest hahaha, also andrew drives like a nutter, i coudnt tell you exactly though

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
not really, this is a blog haha

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
this morning is on tv so that

77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
i'm drinking some V8 raspberry pomegranate juice or somehting at the moment

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
toby i think before i fell asleep, cant find my phone now hahaha

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
i dont know, thie sence of humor i guess

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
i would like to do more in my spare time than i am currently doing haha

81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
songs

82. FAVORITE MONTH OF THE YEAR?
i dont have one yet, maybe one day i will lol

83. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF SWEET?
mmmmm..... creme eggs? anything chocolaty really, but NOT chocolate and nuts, especially not chocolate and peanut butter, like those horrible reeses pieces

84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
yep! kiraahh!

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
naturally a light brown goldy colour but its been black for eons, ive been growing it out for the past about.... 7 months

86. EYE COLOUR?
greeeeen, sometime they look a bit grey or bluey, theres a little browny splodge at the top

88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
mmmm.... chefette (all potato roti, amazing)

89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
i dont go to restaraunts alot, scarlet where i useta work is pretty awesome. Wild Ginger in seattle was really good too.

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
yes! i love it, especially tuna sashimi

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
movie - tristan and isolde, on tv- right now im watching this morning

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
mmmmm.... maybe christmas because im with my family although i wasnt this year

93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
when i was in highschool i was in the handbell choir, because im a winner. I could play the piano when i was young but i've forgotten how now, it doesnt help that i can't read music

94. PIERCINGS OR TATTOOS?
piercings maybe because you can take them out, but tattoos done well can look awesome, i like watching LA ink, i think if i was going to get a tattoo done, it would be there haha. Tattoos done badly just look really awfull and you have basically ruined your skin forever

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
both :) maybe hugs

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
well i've never had a one night stand so i cant compare but id probably go for the relationship, altho those can be crap sometimes hahaa, spouse abuse!

97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
i went grocery shopping last night and got 120 quid of random stuff lol the last thing i bought with MY money was a pizza after sarah and i got trolleyed

98. DO YOU HAVE A LOW SELF ESTEEM OR A HIGH SELF ESTEEM?
depends on how i feel that day haha

99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
PS i love you

100. DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE:
well short summary,
I was born and raised in a suburb of london, i went to a lovely school and realy enjoyed my life to be honest, then when i was 8 my parents decided to up and leave to barbados, i didnt even get to finish the school year, it was like a split second decision and we just up and left (sounds dodgy huh). I didnt like barbados and probably spent too much time feeling sorry for myself and missing home. i went to school, went to university, made some amazing friends i will never forget, did alot of travelling, moved back to england at the ripe old age of 20! and here i am! my life has been pretty awesome to be honest, and im extremely lucky and i dont take anything i have for granted.