Wednesday, January 07, 2009

i'm really really depressed :(
why can't i stop eating?
i just sat on my bathroom floor and cried for a while
i thought i was going to be sick
i tried willing myself to be sick
didn't work
i was being really good today untill i had a cupcake
why cant i do it
when i think about how i was thinner when i moved to england
now ive probably gained about 2 stone
im so sad :( i just wanna cry and curl up into a ball and never eat again ever
i think that there are always going to be overweight people
and that some people are just bigger than others
but why me
i think about it all the time, every day
ill never be good enough or smart enough or pretty enough
i feel like such a failure

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