Soup Glorious Soup

I've been eating nothing but "fresh" soup for over a week now, I don't make it myself, and I'm not certain just how fresh soup in a tub is. Do I feel better for it? Not really, rather the same to be honest. Do I feel any thinner? Not really. Have I been to the gym? Not at all. Tomorrow, I tell myself. I'm really lacking in motivation to go. I need a gym buddy to spur me on. Any volunteers? I have become rather a soup connoisseur though. I do enjoy a bowl of soup. It's got to be better than a sandwich or something else. What I would really like is a bicycle, so I could cycle to university.... Or so it can sit in my living room and act as a clothes horse.... Pashley Poppy please! If anybody feels so inclined. They are lovely.... Imagine all the cakes I could eat and not feel guilty! I made a soya bubble coffee today, delish! Too many pearls though, I was chewing for what felt like an eternity!

Coco Loco

My parents are being psychotic and I'd like to come home now

La Cucaracha

Location, Barbados. Weather, thunderstorms. Today has been perhaps the dullest of the visit home so far. I have also discovered that if you sit on the dining chairs in shorts for a prolonged perios of time, your legs seem to bond with the chair, and rip away when you stand up. Ouch!

I have come on this extended trip to help my parents put the house back together after they renovated the bottom floor. The place is literally a construction site! I cant even sleep in my room because it has the entire contents of the kitchen inside of it. Instead I am sleeping on a futon in the tv room that everyone is living in. it is getting better though, as we slowly move things down, no furniture except the dining table and chairs though.

last night, while plugging in my phone charger, a nasty little black cockroach leapt from its hiding place on the table, and scurries across my wrist. it. was. HORRIFIC. I could feel its little body on my arm long after we sprayed half a can of baygon in the immediate area to exterminate it. My mother then found it funny to tickle my feet while i was sleeping to freak me out. Thanks mummy.

Saturday 2nd July 11

Time , 2308. Mood, Sleepy. Weight, unknown. I sit in front of the tv, pondering life's mysteries. What was the greatest thing before sliced bread? Why is angry birds so addictive? Why don't I have any ice cream? Will I ever fit into my denim skirt ever again? Where is my passport?

I live with a blithering idiot who keeps me enthralled with stories of people I neither know nor care about. Today I had classics such as "Candice txt me at 4 am to tell me about the blister on her toe" and "I shagged this guy who was doing cocaine last night. I'm strongly against drugs, but I respect him for doing it in a different room to the one I was in". Really?? REALLY? i also get regular updates on what she has eaton in the past few days, whatever her 5 year old niece is doing at school, and the current state of her sisters stretch marks. Fab!

tofu surprise

so i went out last night and got a wee bit crunk. i seemed to be fine untill i got out of janines car, then i realised that i was REALLY crunk. so i came in and scoffed... wait for it....... tofu! and then this morning i felt really guilty. for scoffing tofu. now this is taking rediculousness to an entire new level. did anyone ever get far from pigging out on tofu? i dont think so somehow! u dont see japaneese people drinking too much sake, then scoffing a load of the stuff, folowed by either obesity or eating disorders. although last night i id go on the hunt for chocolate. there were like 10 bars yesterday morning then POOF last night i stumble in and its all gone? and it wasnt hidden. i looked. oh boy did i look. no chocolate. which is probably just as well. im pretty sure this jelly isnt vegetarian. oh wellll. i had the rest of the tofu surprise this morning (it was like tofu, brocoli, cherry tomatoes, mushrooms... some squash....all seasoned up with lemon pepper and baked with a tony bit o cheese on the top. although for some reason by the time i got to it last night basically all the cheese had gone, so i cant even feel guilty about the excessive mozarella...) omg ive got today and tomorrow and then its WEIGH IN TIMEEE! how terrifying is that. bloody terrifying i tell thee. all that tofu will have attached to my ass and ill be 5 lbs heavier. fucks sake. i need to do some more exercise. i haaadddd.... about 6 drinks last night (im a lightweight now) i wonder if they will have made a difference. i dont think so but u never know. alcohol has EMPTY CALORIESSSS!!! its like drinking sugar, that makes you easy, hahahahaa. theres a surfing competition today, im wondering if i should go. i think i should. janine is modeling in a bikini competition. i think she wants the moral support (have a little fanbase of one person) so i might go, be her groupie. ya know. my dad might come too and take some pictures. not of janine, of the surfers. that sounded a little creepy. hahaha oh dear! im gunna make some more sugar free jellyyyyy!

picturesss

the sunburn looks alot worse in person ahahaha. i need something to do!

god damn

all i want is a fucking massive chocolate cake! hot damn give me some BROWNIES!!! *chugs glass of water* i never thought about food while i was allowed to eat it all. now im focused on losing weight im OBSESSED with food i cant have!!! if i havent lost any weight by monday ill be depressed. deep depression. i want 2 lbs! ill be ok with 1 lb, 2 and ill be over the freekin moon. then ill know i just have to keep it up and ill be smokin by the time i get home. i keep thinking "imagine all the great sex i can have once im thin" hahahaha. silly thought but its keeping me going. nobody likes a fat chick. except chubby chasers. i hope u know who isnt a chubby chaser, athough he did squeeze my love handle when we were making out. not just a little squeeze, he full on squoze it. i mean its not a boob! its a fat roll. oh well!!!! im listening to the shins. man those brownies look good......

no water?

so the water has been off all day, and its still off. hello third world country! welcome home holly!
so i have just finished my personal statement for my university application, which i shall be uploading soonish. how freaky, then i need to get my old university to send transcripts.
i spent most of the day by the pool today. i have a very very slight tan going on now, yu can see it on my back, there is a nice tanline by my bum (oooh erh)
i should compile a list of things that i would like to do before i go home.
•lose some weight
•dye my hair darker than it is
•get more tanned
•firm up
•go swimming every day (ive done that so fa at least!)
•go on the internet less
•bla bla bla

if i actually had somehting to do i wouldnt have to go on the internet so much so its kinda pointless saying that. i should have put FIND SOMEHTING TO DO. im going to work for my mum on friday, doing property inventories or somehting.

david bowie and maximo park wil help me through these 2 long months on islandville.
here are some songs in particularly enjoying at the moment:
•david bowie - john, im only dancing
•maximo park - books from boxes
•maximo park - grafitti
•al green - tired of being alone
•arctic monkeys - flourescent adolescent
•bombay bicycle club - always like this
•chase & status - end credits
•the darkness - i believe in a thing called love
•does it offend you yeah? - dawn of the dead
•florence and the machine - dog days are over
•franz ferdinand - do you wanna
•the futureheads - hounds of love
•grizzly bear - two weeks
•the libertines - dont look back into the sun
•the maccabees - about your dress
•passionpit - little secrets
•vampire weekend - campus

thats just to name a few :P

I REALLY NEED A SHOWER!